Tomorrow I have an interview.
I am a bit out of practice as far as interviews go I have only had one in the last 5 years. I am quite happy with my ministry but at sometimes see jobs that are like "tent making ministries". Things that fit along side my work but also go a way towards helping fund my ministry.
We have just finished Christmas, and part of the story of Christmas is the fact that Mary and Joseph have to travel to Bethlehem to register in the Census.
That is the Job I am going for...to assist in the Census due this year.
I have also seen a few other posts that might mean a few changes.
The other jobs are more in line with my degree, but it could be argued that I am over qualified for them.
With this in mind, over the last few days I have found myself switching viewpoints.
I am going from Knowing God to be in control and trusting that He will lead knowing that He knows the situation and how I feel .
Then I think...
I haven't heard anything - Did I do anything wrong? Did I undersell myself? Are they thinking I am over qualified and therefore I won't stick around long?.... Oh I hope they like me!
Then there is the whole question of what to wear....how to dress to impress!
The nerves begin to rise ... then I catch myself thinking... STOP!
Within the space of a few minutes I have gone from having confidence in God to worrying about what people think of me.
Now I am not saying that I should not make an effort and prepare, of course I should but at the end of the day God is in control and I have confidence He will guide my path.
If these jobs go passed me, then I am confident He is guiding my steps and will lead me on to the next new thing.
Matthew 6 :25 -26
25 "So I tell you to stop worrying about what you will eat, drink, or wear. Isn't life more than food and the body more than clothes?
26 "Look at the birds. They don't plant, harvest, or gather the harvest into barns. Yet, your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you worth more than they?
Taken from God's Word translation
Showing posts with label ministry musings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ministry musings. Show all posts
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Sunday, May 23, 2010
I realise I have not posted here for some time. The last few months have been quite difficult. After my fall I have had problems with my head which has resulted in frequent headaches.
This has made blogging hard to do.
Ministry wise I have been unable to do very much - due to the headaches....although I did have a very good day training the Kirkcaldy street Pastors in April. I am therefore taking some time to reflect on things at the moment.
Meanwhile my wee boy has turned 3 and before I know it he will be at Play group in August ...time flies doesn't it?
This has made blogging hard to do.
Ministry wise I have been unable to do very much - due to the headaches....although I did have a very good day training the Kirkcaldy street Pastors in April. I am therefore taking some time to reflect on things at the moment.
Meanwhile my wee boy has turned 3 and before I know it he will be at Play group in August ...time flies doesn't it?
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Seeking the cities foundations
If you know me, you know I have a love for Stirling. It was the town (now city) of my birth. There is a certain amount of heritage that I associate with the city. It is also a beautiful part of the world.
It has a mix of urban and rural and is not as big as more cosmopolitan cities like Edinburgh or Glasgow.
I know more about Stirling, therefore I it has a deeper connection in my heart.
I am currently beginning a short evening class on Seeking a city with foundations - an exploration into Urban theology at International Christian College.
What is your vision for your city, town, village or hamlet?
Is it good health, good facilities and amenities or is your vision more about ethics, its people and their spiritual and emotional health?
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Long week
This has been one of those long weeks. It started on Monday. Most of the summer I have had a funding bid to do but it is really hard to crunch numbers when your kids are on holiday and squabbling. Monday ended with me having to go to a community group meeting at night. I am a director of the organisation so I wanted to be kept up to date with progess.
Tuesday was Knockhill.....I chance for me to see to see my sister fulfil a dream.....followed by a very LOONGG church meeting where I got locked in the car park and had to exit via the pavement or pay a call out fee.....can't afford a call out fee, so pavement it was.
Wednesday and Thursday hubby was out late and I had kids challenging bed time....someone from worship band phoned to see if Phil would do the evening service....as well as the 2 morning ones on Sunday......I think I know the answer to that!
Thursday I had Douglas getting woken and scared so bed was 2am....
Friday exhausted and sleep deprived. ..When the kids were in bed a nice glass of wine and watching slumdog millionaire took my mind off my injured arm
What a week!
Tuesday was Knockhill.....I chance for me to see to see my sister fulfil a dream.....followed by a very LOONGG church meeting where I got locked in the car park and had to exit via the pavement or pay a call out fee.....can't afford a call out fee, so pavement it was.
Wednesday and Thursday hubby was out late and I had kids challenging bed time....someone from worship band phoned to see if Phil would do the evening service....as well as the 2 morning ones on Sunday......I think I know the answer to that!
Thursday I had Douglas getting woken and scared so bed was 2am....
Friday exhausted and sleep deprived. ..When the kids were in bed a nice glass of wine and watching slumdog millionaire took my mind off my injured arm
What a week!
Monday, June 15, 2009
Nearing the end of term
Today at our team meeting we "said goodbye" to one of our team members, Donna. Donna is leaving YWAM to go back to Uni. She is one of the "founding team members" so its a bit strange. Although she is not going far, it will be a change in dynamic.
My daughter on the other hand is nearing the end of Primary 1. The first year of school has had its ups and downs but she has a real hunger to learn.
The last two weeks have been busy, Jen has invited her best friend to some events. We have really enjoyed just spending time with them and having an opportunity to share Jesus with her friend and his family. (Whilst having lots of fun too.)
Other things happening...
I am trying to design a website for YWAM Stirling. This means I am trying to learn new skills.
I am enjoying learning something new.
I am also really enjoying the fact that I have a mix of stuff on at the minute. Being able to do Street pastors and Healing rooms is just great. I have more contact with people and (at the moment) a little less admin.
My daughter on the other hand is nearing the end of Primary 1. The first year of school has had its ups and downs but she has a real hunger to learn.
The last two weeks have been busy, Jen has invited her best friend to some events. We have really enjoyed just spending time with them and having an opportunity to share Jesus with her friend and his family. (Whilst having lots of fun too.)
Other things happening...
I am trying to design a website for YWAM Stirling. This means I am trying to learn new skills.
I am enjoying learning something new.
I am also really enjoying the fact that I have a mix of stuff on at the minute. Being able to do Street pastors and Healing rooms is just great. I have more contact with people and (at the moment) a little less admin.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
When is a mum ever a Part - timer
Man, what a busy week. Monday is mayhem at the moment and Tuesdays are busy....and by Wednesday morning, I want to know "Is it Friday yet?" (Mind you Friday does not mean that I have time off.)
When I first rejoined YWAM I thought that I would make things easy and say that I am part time in mission, rather than a full time ministry. The truth is however when is a Christian ever part time in what we do?
At the time of writing, it is only a few weeks until I am off to Germany. This week I was in Stirling doing Street pastors, Arbroath on Tuesday with money management and Thursday in Aberdeen with a staff day. That was my "work" or ministry.
I also work with the Scottish Society for Autism, for what I see as a "tentmaking" ministry to support my YWAM work and this week I have done that each day not doing YWAM or ministry stuff.
I must admit, I am tired, very tired.
The dilemma that I find myself in however is this:
If I turn down shifts (and I did turn down some anyway) would I be saying "No" to God's way of providing the money I need for Germany?
I believe wholeheartedly that God wants me to go and do the DNA Infusion conference. So if I turn down the shifts in the next few weeks, what happens if the money I need to go does not come through.
Would I be a bit like the guy in the joke that asks God when he reaches heaven why did you not help me God in the flood. And God answers I sent a boat and a helicopter and you said no to them. (Paraphrased version)
So yes it is true to say I am working far more than I would like to at the moment....but even when I am off....I am a mum and a wife - so when is the day off exactly?
Even if it is my day off if an opportunity arises to share what God has done or is doing I am not necessarily going to say, come back to me next Thursday. (Although sometimes those boundaries are easier set.)
At the moment I hope that I won't burn out so much that I am too shattered to participate and gain from what God has for me in Germany.
As a mum though, I am still dreading being away for 3 weeks.
When I first rejoined YWAM I thought that I would make things easy and say that I am part time in mission, rather than a full time ministry. The truth is however when is a Christian ever part time in what we do?
At the time of writing, it is only a few weeks until I am off to Germany. This week I was in Stirling doing Street pastors, Arbroath on Tuesday with money management and Thursday in Aberdeen with a staff day. That was my "work" or ministry.
I also work with the Scottish Society for Autism, for what I see as a "tentmaking" ministry to support my YWAM work and this week I have done that each day not doing YWAM or ministry stuff.
I must admit, I am tired, very tired.
The dilemma that I find myself in however is this:
If I turn down shifts (and I did turn down some anyway) would I be saying "No" to God's way of providing the money I need for Germany?
I believe wholeheartedly that God wants me to go and do the DNA Infusion conference. So if I turn down the shifts in the next few weeks, what happens if the money I need to go does not come through.
Would I be a bit like the guy in the joke that asks God when he reaches heaven why did you not help me God in the flood. And God answers I sent a boat and a helicopter and you said no to them. (Paraphrased version)
So yes it is true to say I am working far more than I would like to at the moment....but even when I am off....I am a mum and a wife - so when is the day off exactly?
Even if it is my day off if an opportunity arises to share what God has done or is doing I am not necessarily going to say, come back to me next Thursday. (Although sometimes those boundaries are easier set.)
At the moment I hope that I won't burn out so much that I am too shattered to participate and gain from what God has for me in Germany.
As a mum though, I am still dreading being away for 3 weeks.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
What is my value base?
I have been challenged recently about my value base and passion.
I am aware (oh too aware at times) that having worked hard to retrain as a community worker, thinking that I would be able to better provide for my family, God asked me to return to mission. I therefore have never really earned the professional salary (and obviously I have added a student loan, to my name.)
So how does that balance out - simply it doesn't.....At least not if you think in worldly terms.
I have always liked the town ( now a city) of my birth. This site is the daughter of the Rock and that for me means two things. Stirling is known as the city of the Rock, because of where the castle sits. So if you are born in Stirling, you are a Son or daughter of the Rock. I however, am twice a daughter of the Rock - for I am a daughter of Stirling and a daughter of my Heavenly Father.
How blessed am I?
As I said I have always liked Stirling, but I believe it is more than that I have a love for my city.
I have this joke with people that I now live in exile since I live in the Hillfoots now. I yearn to be back in Stirling. Don't get me wrong, I like aspects of the Hillfoots. I like having a fishmonger and a good veg shop in the village and I like the fact we live 2 mins from the school, not forgetting the beautiful hills that are out my window....But my passion is for the City of the Rock, Stirling... I long to see Stirling having a hope, vibrance and knowledge of the Son of the Rock - Jesus.
To have your security in God, knowing that you are precious and loved.
I have this thing with Jen, I say "What are you?" and she knows that I am expecting the answer "Precious" So many of us don't have self worth - and if we struggle with that how then can we grasp how valuable and precious we are to God?
Where am I going with this - we all form our values from something and we all have our passion.
One of my passions is Stirling. So what about my values?
Some within the community work field question how you can adhere to the professional value of self - determination yet clearly work from a faith base. It's simple, God gave us freewill. I can value the individual and respect their opinion, even if I don't agree with it. If I share my faith, a person still has the ability to self determine and agree or disagree.
I value the person. Everyone has skills and abilities. I believe some can be learned but some are God given. As a community worker, I want to help people grow in confidence and reach their full potential. I want that for everyone, including myself. That forms part of my own personal journey.
Being in mission at the moment might not give me a secure income, but I can focus on people. I am also not developing things quickly, reacting to current events. Rather we can plan and develop quality programmes in God's timing.
I am aware (oh too aware at times) that having worked hard to retrain as a community worker, thinking that I would be able to better provide for my family, God asked me to return to mission. I therefore have never really earned the professional salary (and obviously I have added a student loan, to my name.)
So how does that balance out - simply it doesn't.....At least not if you think in worldly terms.
I have always liked the town ( now a city) of my birth. This site is the daughter of the Rock and that for me means two things. Stirling is known as the city of the Rock, because of where the castle sits. So if you are born in Stirling, you are a Son or daughter of the Rock. I however, am twice a daughter of the Rock - for I am a daughter of Stirling and a daughter of my Heavenly Father.
How blessed am I?
As I said I have always liked Stirling, but I believe it is more than that I have a love for my city.
I have this joke with people that I now live in exile since I live in the Hillfoots now. I yearn to be back in Stirling. Don't get me wrong, I like aspects of the Hillfoots. I like having a fishmonger and a good veg shop in the village and I like the fact we live 2 mins from the school, not forgetting the beautiful hills that are out my window....But my passion is for the City of the Rock, Stirling... I long to see Stirling having a hope, vibrance and knowledge of the Son of the Rock - Jesus.
To have your security in God, knowing that you are precious and loved.
I have this thing with Jen, I say "What are you?" and she knows that I am expecting the answer "Precious" So many of us don't have self worth - and if we struggle with that how then can we grasp how valuable and precious we are to God?
Where am I going with this - we all form our values from something and we all have our passion.
One of my passions is Stirling. So what about my values?
Some within the community work field question how you can adhere to the professional value of self - determination yet clearly work from a faith base. It's simple, God gave us freewill. I can value the individual and respect their opinion, even if I don't agree with it. If I share my faith, a person still has the ability to self determine and agree or disagree.
I value the person. Everyone has skills and abilities. I believe some can be learned but some are God given. As a community worker, I want to help people grow in confidence and reach their full potential. I want that for everyone, including myself. That forms part of my own personal journey.
Being in mission at the moment might not give me a secure income, but I can focus on people. I am also not developing things quickly, reacting to current events. Rather we can plan and develop quality programmes in God's timing.
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